I have this ongoing joke with my family that unless I’m “kicked out” (not literally, don’t worry) of a job, home, apartment, or whatever, I’ll probably just stay put forever. Looking back, every major life change I’ve had wasn’t exactly my own brilliant idea, it was more like what I call “divine intervention.”

Take my first job, for instance, a truly toxic place where, at 19, I got formally introduced to my good friend anxiety. Then came COVID, and suddenly everyone was sent home with the ultimate work-from-home starter pack: two monitors, a headset, an office chair (because apparently, sitting on the floor wasn’t professional enough), and a strict demand for ethernet. Meanwhile, I stood there on that office floor, overwhelmed, thinking, “Home? What home?” I was living in a shelter at the time, where space was so tight it could barely fit my toothbrush, let alone office equipment. And the internet? Let’s just say a Google search took so long to load, I could’ve written a whole diary entry before it finished.

Long story short, I got laid off and honestly, thank God for that! It led me to a much better job with better pay, work I genuinely enjoyed, and zero anxiety-inducing drama.

I could share hundreds of stories like this, times when I knew deep down a certain space wasn’t right for me but stayed anyway, no matter how bad it was for my peace of mind or my future. But here I am, four years later, making a conscious decision to resign, even though I’m absolutely terrified of what the future holds.

This time, I want to chase what I love (more on that soon!) and push myself to see what I’m really capable of.

Because if I don’t make that choice now, in my mid-twenties, I know I’ll wake up in my thirties stuck in the exact same space and that’s not a joke I’d find funny anymore.

I’m inviting everyone who stumbles across this post to join me on this journey! I’ll still be sharing more poems, but don’t hesitate to reach out and share your story if you can relate. Wishing nothing but the best for all of us, I know we’ll make it! Happier, richer, and more gorgeous than ever! 💫🌸